Linnéa @Neanzo@duck.cafe

As recommended I'm doing a #introduction

My name is Linnéa. I'm 19 and from Sweden. I'm bisexual and pretty certain I have ADHD (I hope I'll be diagnosed soon). I'm currently studying at Uppsala university and it's basically anthropology/ethnology. If you couldn't guess from that, I'm very interested in the world, like everything from geography to language and culture. In my free time I enjoy sketching and gaming among other things.

After talking to a psychologist yesterday I feel so much better and today I both cooked dinner and baked. I feel productive and happy. I really like cooking and baking but usually don't feel motivated to do any of it. I wish you all a good night and hope you too had a good day, and remember, whatever you managed to do today, you did great!

If breaking my computer or phone didn't have any consequences I would throw them on the floor with all my strength after any slight inconvenience.

I'm so stressed and overwhelmed but it feels good to just put my thoughts into words and send it out into the world, like it's fine if nobody reads this or cares. Just writing it down feels good, and I think i can understand my feelings better, and it releases stress. Really, I keep telling people you gotta let out all your bad feelings or else it will stay inside of you and make you sick. And don't mind my brain just changing the topic.

It's so fucking hard for me to open up to the people around me and I hate crying in front of people, but I've been talking to a psychologist and even tho it's so hard to turn my thoughts into actual words I've been doing it and I feel better knowing someone knows what's going on in my mind. That's also why I vent on here, and I like that I don't have family on here so that they don't show up and try to fix my life in a way I can't handle right now.

For so many years I've been struggling, mainly with studies, but eventually things turned out fine, not the best, but at least fine, so whatever happens I keep telling myself that it's all gonna be fine but I'm starting to worry that the system that is supposed to catch me might fail me. What if, even if I get diagnosed with ADHD, someone decides I'm well enough functioning to not get the help and support I actually need? Then who will help me? But I need to keep my hope up.

Origin of symmetry is my go to album to listen to on public transport. It's so calming to look out the window with your favorite music in your ears.

Any possibility I can take a 2 month vacation from life and just exist as a lonely soul floating through the quiet Russian taiga?

Idk if I have any follower that will understand this, but I just realized, if you're visiting someone and they have a watering can by the toilet, you know you will not walk out of that home hungry

Today I almost had a mental breakdown before travelling away from my family and I'm thinking maybe it's because I know I'll be able take my mask off when I'm alone and once that happens I think I will have a panic attack.

I've spent about 3 weeks with my family now for the holidays and for the last few days I've been dreading the day I'm going away (which is today). I've been dreaming stressful dreams and slept very uneasily and I'm still not sure why. But one though I got is that during my time with my family I've kept busy so that I keep all my feeling hidden away. I've opened up a little bit to my family about how I'm feeling mentally but I don't really show emotion and talk very lightly abt it.

Being stubborn, impatient, and having problems with your computer is a recipe for learning some new tech skills, at least for me.

Mental health

I thought I would be posting on here more, and like using it as an outlet for my thoughts, but I just coping with life everyday. I think I'm chronically stressed since like 7th grade.

There are CWs on way more things on here than what I'm used to (which I think is good) so if I ever post something potentially triggering without CW feel free to tell me.

Thought I'd post another picture. I'm far from a professional photographer, and I only use my phone to take photos (this was taken with Samsung Galaxy S10e). I just always enjoyed taking photos, trying to find the best angle etc.

In an effort to get less obsessed with instagram and more obsessed with mastodon, as soon as I downloaded Tusky I removed instagram from my home screen and put Tusky there instead. So where I usually, instinctively press to open instagram, I will now come onto mastodon, and it has worked wonders 🎉

As recommended I'm doing a #introduction

My name is Linnéa. I'm 19 and from Sweden. I'm bisexual and pretty certain I have ADHD (I hope I'll be diagnosed soon). I'm currently studying at Uppsala university and it's basically anthropology/ethnology. If you couldn't guess from that, I'm very interested in the world, like everything from geography to language and culture. In my free time I enjoy sketching and gaming among other things.

Mastodon is already giving me much more action than twitter ever gave me. I'm loving this so far, thanks to everyone being so supportive :)